I Tryed To Be Perfect, But Nothing Was Worth It

Feb 6, 2005

Until the DaY ! di3 I spill My H3art f0r Y0o

Hey, so i havent wrote in this thing in awhile.. so yeah .. This weekend was cool, Sava came over Friday, we stayed in and went to bed early, Saterday we ordered in, Chinese Rocks lol. Then we went Cosmic Bowling, damn was there alot of hot guys =) hehe. Mainly from NF since Tinsle was last night. Then we came home Luke called around 2:00 and my aunt got home at 3 and she started bitching and yeah .. and she has this huge stick up her ass and it carried over in the AM. So we took sava home around 1 and then I came back and did the dishes and swept to make her happy .. Yeah so into details now ..
Friday- We went to Subway and then to speedway and came back here.. thought we saw some assholes driving around my teritroty .. but here it was an oldman.. so then we came back and chilled and i fell asleep on the floor and then we went to bed.
Saterday- woke up and Scott made us breakfast cuz hes a cool kid lol. it was good. Then my aunt went out and didnt come back and we ordered Chinese.. bitches finially found our house this time .. lol. So then we got ready and went to Giant Eagle at 10:30 just for cameras lol. Then we went to Rainbow Lanes

***NEW JOURAL - Ghostofyou

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My boredness awaits you

[Bold what pertains to you ]

01. I love alcohol
02. I'm single.
03. I'm straight
04. I love to dance
05. I wish I didn't have to go to school so early
06. I miss a lot of people
07. I hate when people type LyKe ThIs in a normal conversation
08. I wish I could be an artist.
09. I try not to cry in front of people
10. I have one older brother
11. I have some crazy conversations online
12. I like people who make me laugh.
13. I am Portuguese
14. I hate snow
15. I love live journal
16. I hate liars
17. I know how to do the Macarena.
18. I love Tupac
19. Sarcasm is my friend
20. I've done drugs.
21. I want to travel more.
22. I know how to do the tootsie roll
23. I have a horrible relationship with my parents

24. I've done lists like this before
25. I procrastinate.
26. I like to shop

27. I hate people who judge
28. I wish i was a little kid again - in some aspects i do ..

29. I wish I spent more time with my friends.
30. I want to accomplish more of the goals I've set for myself.
31. I love my bed
32. i need money
33. I wish I had a job
34. I need to work out more.
35. I like going to sleep late.
36. When I die, I want to be buried with my mom

37. I'd like to go to college.
38. I like staying out till the AM.
39. My parents got divorced when I was 5
40. I love making people happy.
41. I want to go to Hawaii *****
42. I want to study criminal justice
43. I don't mind getting shots.
44. I like to sleep.
45. I hate Bush
46. I feel as though few people understand me.
47. I spend a lot of time thinking.
48. I don't like prueds
49. I love horror movies

50. I'm insane.
51. I sleep on my side
52. I've never had a job at Target.
53. I want to own an apartment in NYC.
54. I like little kids.
55. I love Mexican food.
56. I want my license
57. I am not a good musician, but wish I was.
58. I love hanging out with my friends
59. I don't like the President.
60. I curse too much

61. I've been to Puerto Rico.
62. I don't believe in aliens.
63. I don't believe in afterlife.
64. I love drawing
65. I would like to be fluent in another language.
66. I love The Parkers..
67. I've never told anyone all of my secrets.
68. I hate it when people around me are sad. Makes me sad.
69. I love pictures
70. I sing, but not well.
71. I love the rain.
72. I wish people didn't label other people.
73. I wish I was happy(all the time)

74. I love hypnotiq.
75. I wish I was tanner
76. I wish I had talent.
77. I dont like to read.
78. I get bored easily.
79. I might never get married.
80. I like massages.
81. I have bad judgement when it comes to guys.
82. Ben and Jerry's ice cream is the best.
83. I like wife beaters
84. I love my friends.
85. I want my tongue pierced.
86. I like to sleep under a bunch of blankets.
87. I hate loosing touch with people.
88. While I've had some close calls, I've never met anyone who really reminds me of me.
89. I don't like people who complain about everything.
90. I've never had a job
91. I wish I could live in my own house.
92. I am Irish.
93. I hate snitches
94. I'm a beantown baby.
95. I think hating someone based on their gender, ethnicity, or sexual preference is stupid.
96. I love the night sky!!!
97. I'm selfconscious
98. I have lots of regrets, and never believe people who tell me they have none.
99. I love big sweatshirts
100. I love concerts

Posted at 02:40 pm by Megn
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Jan 23, 2005

we've been slaves to this love

FUCKING PATRIOTS ARE WILLING I SWEAR IF THEY WIN ILL KILL SOMEONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MOTHER FUCKER!!! so yeah.. now that thats out .. how are you? Well im good =) .. this wekend rocked =) .. well friday sava came over .. then saterday night matt n ian came over and then ashley came over and we woke my mom up and she got us alcohol =) well lets say i wasnt the most soberest .. lol well like at 10:30, Lukus Patrick called me and I was laying on the frige and had to have Ian help me up bc i had to peee realllllllly bad .. and then i was talking to Luke for like 2 hours =) hes so sweet! I cant wait till he comes up this weekend ! I love him (like a bro) hes so sweet and he talks to me in the AM befor school and that makes my mornings all better , gives me a reason to wake up lol. yeah .. Right now im listening to HIM .. Join Me .. cuz ya know , HIM rocks! well how bout we woke up at 7:50 AM?! ?what the fuck! ? and well Matt was mad bc i have pics of him from a few weekends ago dressing in my clothes, and i wouldnt delete them, so he was trying to get my phone .. and Ian was taping this on his phone lol. it was great lmao .. and then last night me n sava went outside and got a snowball and i was gonna throw it at matt, but he got up, so i put it down his shirt, and then I threw it at Ian and it hit him in the eye and hes like "megn, we gotta have a lil talk about snow" and he picked me up but i kept hitting him and all and matts helping him and then they threw me outside but then sav let me in, cuz me n her are cool lol .. and then we locked Ian N Sav out for like a half n hour .. hehe .. Sorry Ian about making fun of yr penis lmao .. so yeah .. well i think im going to return to my chair and watch this shitty game and hope the Patriots DIE IN FUCKING HELL IF THEY WIN! FUCKERS! so yeah. . good night ?
x0x MEGN x0x

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Jan 5, 2005

lovers and friends

ABOUT ME :
My name is: Megan Helena

I may seem: quiet/shy
But I really: talk when i know people around me
Sometimes I feel: blahish
I like to sleep: any minute i can lol
One thing I wish I had is: that i was in 4 again. . .
One thing I have that I wish I didn't is: Nemo. . .LMAO Sava! haha
If I could see one person(s) right now: Kevin
Something I want but I don't really need is: more clothes
Something I need but I don't really want is: hrm. . .
I live for: to see my friends

I am afraid of: snakes n spiders

FIRSTS:
First best friend: not sure, i think Cali?
First car: can't drive
First screen name: sonnyb13
First self purchased album: um . . .?
First funeral: My great-aunts
First pets:my 2 fish
First tattoo: ---
First credit card: ---
First enemy: hahaha
First musician you remember hearing in your house: um. . .?

LASTS :
Last car ride: yesterday for my ortho
Last kiss: haha this "one kid" . . . ugh!
Last library book: um. . . never got a book that i rmemeber
Last movie seen: (home: Space Jam! yeah!!) (theaters: Meet the Fockers)
Last beverage drank: pepsi
Last food consumed: bread
Last Crush:

Last phone call: Sarah

Last shoes worn: my white vans

Last cd played: LTJ / Anthem

Last item bought: my earrigns
Last annoyance: when someone didnt call me back
Last disappointment: someoen not tlakign to me/
Last shirt worn: my old navy white one
Last website visited: Spint for my cellphone

Last words you said: "sign this" to my aunt
Last song you sang: These Days - rascle flatts

What color socks are you wearing: none
Whats under your bed?: my speakers n boxes

What time did you wake up today? 6

FUTURE:
Where do you want to go?: MSU
What is your career going to be?: dont know yet
Where are you going to live?: Portugual! haha
How many kids do you want?: 2

What kind of car: Eclipse

CURRENT :
Current mood: confused. hyper

Current music: Radio@AOL - Rascle Flatts / These Days
Current taste: saliva
Current clothes: zebra pj bottoms n a white tee

Current longing: for saterday to come <3
Current desktop picture: autom leaves
Current favorite artist: Matchbox Romance n My Chem. Romance
Current favorite book: dont have one.. .
Current hate: . . . Bre. . . lmao

Posted at 07:25 pm by Megn
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Jan 1, 2005

My thoughts are so tempting

Hey whats up? Happy New Year. . . I went figgin skating and it kinda sucked bigg time. . . well i coulda got trashed at a few places. . . >:-( Tonight I went bowling. Me, Bre, Sara, Josh, TJ, Zack, n Kacey. We didnt really bowl alot bc we didnt really feel like paying $2.75 a game for 4 hrs. So we basicly dicked around with our cell phones, taking them and calling each other. friggin josh took my money i didnt know i had and then i took his hat and he bit me and i still have teeth marks, like 2 hrs later. . . lol I got home new years day at like 7:30, we went to Sheetz and then home and went to bed at 8, and woke up around 12:30, . yeah well im tired as fuck, so im going to bed. . . later.

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Dec 27, 2004

I dont wanna make things anyworse

Dude. theres like 4 more days of 2004. . . weee. .. awe, all the momories! . . .Todays last years "Sunday" hahahahaha. . . Ly2 :-) 2005, here we come lol.

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Dec 24, 2004

No ones there to save you

Hey, Santa's comming tonight! whoo hoo!! Finially!
Well today I woke up, went to Lisa, My aunts friend whos lives in Howland, and had breakfast, and opened presents. Then Tanned, Then it was about 1 and we went to Burlington and Kohls. Then came home and wrapped them gifts.
Then My anunt and Jason brought the 27'' Flat screen TV my g-ma won at Bingo last night. Its reallllly nice. Clear picture :-D
Then Tracy, my aunts other friend, came over and they brought presents. They got my an Aero white hoddy and pink sweat pants. Lisa got me an Aero pink hoddy. weird. well yeah. cant wait till tomorrow!
Right now Im sitting here with an ice pack up my shirt bc im sun burnt from tanning 2 days in a row. I think when I tanned at Tropicana, their lights were stronger then im used to and i didnt put lotion on, so yeah.
Well its like 11 pm and we watched Dodgeball (love that movie) and some Canidate movie, with Denzel Washington. It was pretty good.
Well im gonna hit the hay so Santa can come! Cuz im getting revenge on him, last year he stole my cookies and called me a hoe 3 times! what the yay!? well later. . .
Dont tell matt, but I got him coal. . . shhhh!! ;-) lol j/m, lyb, well Merry Christmas!

- Megan Helena -

Posted at 08:06 pm by Megn
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Dec 23, 2004

Live like you were Dying

Hey whats up? Nothen much here, im sooo bored and its toooo early. But my mom said she wanted to go early, we're going to get my aunt her printer/copier/fax that i want lol. and then we're getting my grannie g a scarf, and gloves. yeahhh. Burr.
Tomorrow's Christmas Eve! whooo hooo!!! Finially! I know somethings i got I know I got the LTJ Anthem CD that the fucker was spossed to burn me for my b-day what the yay, umm. . . My Chemical Romance, Good Charlotte's Cronicles of Life n Death, Simple Plan's Still not getting any. . . OC's 1st season, A phone for my room, Princess Diaries 2, i got my cell phone, a few gift cards from grannie g.
Im listening to Country on Radio@AOL. Breanna got me my Corona Cards and that cow at Spencers. hahaha. I went to her house last night, we watched 'Elf' . . . I love that movie lol.
And then Tuesday night Savannah stayed and we went to Subway then to Speedway and then to the movie place and then to Katie's Corner and had shitty ice cream. Then to the beverage tunnel and got M&M's. then came back and got online and then yeah. . .
I have NO idea what I'm doing for New Years. . . Last year I went to the Cortland Skate with Sava, Keri, LeeAnn and all them, 2 Years ago, I went to the Champion Skate with Bre, Lexii, Megan, Kirsten, and all them, 3 Years ago I went to Kyra's with Bre. . . This year I just wanna have a few people over, have a few drinky drinky's :-D and just party it out. lol . . . so idk. . .
Christmas always sucks for me, 4 years ago I threw up every 2 seconds, 3 years ago i had bronchitis, 2 years ago i had a cold, last year i was sick, this is its the time of the month, WHAT THE HELL!?!?
Well I think Im gonna go finish getting ready so I can go and have some Yamoto's yummy. . . hehe well Later. if you need me, Text me 883.9574 Later .:. Megn .:.

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Dec 15, 2004

How could 14 yrs just get up and pass away?

Hey whats up? Nothing here. Im so bored. Theres so much boy drama. lol, Savannah knows what i mean. Shes the best. Shes always there for me, thanks sister :-D We're cool with Keri now, finially. Friday Breanna stayed and we went to the Skate. Haven't been there in forever. Saw this one band and Sanity Fare. Then went bowling in the morning, went by fast bc there was just me and the other chick from our team. Then Savannah and Keri came over and we did some weird things like before, "Oh how i missed this" haha. Yeah, but my aunt found out what we did bc we didnt clean up. so yeah. And then at 10:30 we went cosmic bowling and took Sara. had fun there. we got bumpers, "gutter suckers" lol, on one so they could get a half way decent score. well Sava and i were up and i was on the bumper side and Cory was watching us and we kicked them and I got a strike and he just laughed. They were making fun of us lol. It be iight. And then Josh made my score a 300 and Sava and Keri's fisrt 0's. then 69's, well im bored, so here

1. IF YOU COULD BUILD A HOUSE ANYWHERE WHERE WOULD IT
BE? by the beach
2. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ARTICLE OF CLOTHING? My blue pj pants =)
3. HIGH SCHOOL MEMORY? Lunches

4. THE LAST CD THAT YOU BOUGHT/BURNED? umm. . . i didnt buy it, but its a demo, of Sanity Fare
5. WHERE IS YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO BE? in my bed
6. WHERE'S YOUR LEAST FAVORITE PLACE TO BE? school
7. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO BE MASSAGED? kneck
8. WHAT'S MOST IMPORTANT, STRONG IN MIND OR STRONG IN
BODY? 50/50
9. WHAT TIME DO YOU WAKE IN THE MORNING? like 5:50
10. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE KITCHEN APPLIANCE? microwave
11. WHAT MAKES YOU REALLY ANGRY? when someone lies to me....or when someone thinks they know what i want/ thinking, but they dont
12. IF YOU COULD PLAY AN INSTRUMENT, WHAT WOULD IT BE?um. ..
13. FAVORITE COLOR? Pink
14. WHICH DO YOU PREFER, SPORTS CAR OR SUV? sports car, but a SUV for my Escalade
15. DO YOU BELIEVE IN AFTERLIFE? no
16. FAVORITE CHILDREN'S BOOK? rhyms
17. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON? Summer
18. IF YOU COULD HAVE ONE SUPER POWER, WHAT WOULD IT
BE? have spider webs, like Spiderman!
19. IF YOU HAVE A TATTOO, WHAT IS IT? I don't have one, but I want one on my lower back
20. CAN YOU JUGGLE? No.
21. THE ONE PERSON FROM YOUR PAST YOU WISH YOU COULD
GO BACK AND TALK TO? I would go back and talk to a lot of people, I've found out the hard way that you don't always have all the time you want to tell some one something....even if someone don't want to hear how you feel about them you should some how tell them any way....
22. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE DAY? Friday and Sat.
23. WHAT'S IN THE TRUNK OF YOUR CAR?
24. WHICH DO YOU PREFER, SUSHI OR HAMBURGER? Hamburger
25. FROM THE PEOPLE YOU WILL EMAIL THIS TO, WHO'S MOST
LIKELY TO RESPOND FIRST? not sure
26. WHO'S LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND? I don't know!
27. WHO DID YOU RECEIVE THIS FROM? A friend

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Dec 7, 2004

Its the onlii way we kno how to rock

Hey whats up? Nothing here. Im sooo bored. Im listening to AOL@ Radio =\ . I wanna go to the movies. Its sooo windy right now. jeeze I havent wrote in this in awhile. Well lets see. . . Friday, I got my cell phone =D for an early x-mas present, Savannah came over. We got a movie. Well then we had to wake up at 8 bc i had to bowl, so we went there and yeah, and then we went to the mall with my aunt and Lisa, and also Olive Garden, Later that night, we went to 422's. Good resturant. Saw Brandon there. Hes so cute hehe. Then came home and watched the movie and ran it back at 10. and then yeah, it was kinda boring this weekend considering that i just got ungrounded. On my interms i got:
History -    D
Science -   C
Health -     N/A (D)

English - A
Work/Fam.-B

Math - B
Yeah, so i just gotta bring my health and history grades up, i hated being grounded!! Wonder whos "Haha" on my tagboard? and "Hahaha"? hrmm,. . . i have a english and work/fam project due Friday =/ well i think im out, if you need me, call/ text me .883-9574.
All i want for x-mas is you
-Megn

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