I Tryed To Be Perfect, But Nothing Was Worth It

Dec 27, 2004

I dont wanna make things anyworse

Dude. theres like 4 more days of 2004. . . weee. .. awe, all the momories! . . .Todays last years "Sunday" hahahahaha. . . Ly2 :-) 2005, here we come lol.

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Dec 24, 2004

No ones there to save you

Hey, Santa's comming tonight! whoo hoo!! Finially!
Well today I woke up, went to Lisa, My aunts friend whos lives in Howland, and had breakfast, and opened presents. Then Tanned, Then it was about 1 and we went to Burlington and Kohls. Then came home and wrapped them gifts.
Then My anunt and Jason brought the 27'' Flat screen TV my g-ma won at Bingo last night. Its reallllly nice. Clear picture :-D
Then Tracy, my aunts other friend, came over and they brought presents. They got my an Aero white hoddy and pink sweat pants. Lisa got me an Aero pink hoddy. weird. well yeah. cant wait till tomorrow!
Right now Im sitting here with an ice pack up my shirt bc im sun burnt from tanning 2 days in a row. I think when I tanned at Tropicana, their lights were stronger then im used to and i didnt put lotion on, so yeah.
Well its like 11 pm and we watched Dodgeball (love that movie) and some Canidate movie, with Denzel Washington. It was pretty good.
Well im gonna hit the hay so Santa can come! Cuz im getting revenge on him, last year he stole my cookies and called me a hoe 3 times! what the yay!? well later. . .
Dont tell matt, but I got him coal. . . shhhh!! ;-) lol j/m, lyb, well Merry Christmas!

- Megan Helena -

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Dec 23, 2004

Live like you were Dying

Hey whats up? Nothen much here, im sooo bored and its toooo early. But my mom said she wanted to go early, we're going to get my aunt her printer/copier/fax that i want lol. and then we're getting my grannie g a scarf, and gloves. yeahhh. Burr.
Tomorrow's Christmas Eve! whooo hooo!!! Finially! I know somethings i got I know I got the LTJ Anthem CD that the fucker was spossed to burn me for my b-day what the yay, umm. . . My Chemical Romance, Good Charlotte's Cronicles of Life n Death, Simple Plan's Still not getting any. . . OC's 1st season, A phone for my room, Princess Diaries 2, i got my cell phone, a few gift cards from grannie g.
Im listening to Country on Radio@AOL. Breanna got me my Corona Cards and that cow at Spencers. hahaha. I went to her house last night, we watched 'Elf' . . . I love that movie lol.
And then Tuesday night Savannah stayed and we went to Subway then to Speedway and then to the movie place and then to Katie's Corner and had shitty ice cream. Then to the beverage tunnel and got M&M's. then came back and got online and then yeah. . .
I have NO idea what I'm doing for New Years. . . Last year I went to the Cortland Skate with Sava, Keri, LeeAnn and all them, 2 Years ago, I went to the Champion Skate with Bre, Lexii, Megan, Kirsten, and all them, 3 Years ago I went to Kyra's with Bre. . . This year I just wanna have a few people over, have a few drinky drinky's :-D and just party it out. lol . . . so idk. . .
Christmas always sucks for me, 4 years ago I threw up every 2 seconds, 3 years ago i had bronchitis, 2 years ago i had a cold, last year i was sick, this is its the time of the month, WHAT THE HELL!?!?
Well I think Im gonna go finish getting ready so I can go and have some Yamoto's yummy. . . hehe well Later. if you need me, Text me 883.9574 Later .:. Megn .:.

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Dec 15, 2004

How could 14 yrs just get up and pass away?

Hey whats up? Nothing here. Im so bored. Theres so much boy drama. lol, Savannah knows what i mean. Shes the best. Shes always there for me, thanks sister :-D We're cool with Keri now, finially. Friday Breanna stayed and we went to the Skate. Haven't been there in forever. Saw this one band and Sanity Fare. Then went bowling in the morning, went by fast bc there was just me and the other chick from our team. Then Savannah and Keri came over and we did some weird things like before, "Oh how i missed this" haha. Yeah, but my aunt found out what we did bc we didnt clean up. so yeah. And then at 10:30 we went cosmic bowling and took Sara. had fun there. we got bumpers, "gutter suckers" lol, on one so they could get a half way decent score. well Sava and i were up and i was on the bumper side and Cory was watching us and we kicked them and I got a strike and he just laughed. They were making fun of us lol. It be iight. And then Josh made my score a 300 and Sava and Keri's fisrt 0's. then 69's, well im bored, so here

1. IF YOU COULD BUILD A HOUSE ANYWHERE WHERE WOULD IT
BE? by the beach
2. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ARTICLE OF CLOTHING? My blue pj pants =)
3. HIGH SCHOOL MEMORY? Lunches

4. THE LAST CD THAT YOU BOUGHT/BURNED? umm. . . i didnt buy it, but its a demo, of Sanity Fare
5. WHERE IS YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO BE? in my bed
6. WHERE'S YOUR LEAST FAVORITE PLACE TO BE? school
7. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO BE MASSAGED? kneck
8. WHAT'S MOST IMPORTANT, STRONG IN MIND OR STRONG IN
BODY? 50/50
9. WHAT TIME DO YOU WAKE IN THE MORNING? like 5:50
10. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE KITCHEN APPLIANCE? microwave
11. WHAT MAKES YOU REALLY ANGRY? when someone lies to me....or when someone thinks they know what i want/ thinking, but they dont
12. IF YOU COULD PLAY AN INSTRUMENT, WHAT WOULD IT BE?um. ..
13. FAVORITE COLOR? Pink
14. WHICH DO YOU PREFER, SPORTS CAR OR SUV? sports car, but a SUV for my Escalade
15. DO YOU BELIEVE IN AFTERLIFE? no
16. FAVORITE CHILDREN'S BOOK? rhyms
17. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON? Summer
18. IF YOU COULD HAVE ONE SUPER POWER, WHAT WOULD IT
BE? have spider webs, like Spiderman!
19. IF YOU HAVE A TATTOO, WHAT IS IT? I don't have one, but I want one on my lower back
20. CAN YOU JUGGLE? No.
21. THE ONE PERSON FROM YOUR PAST YOU WISH YOU COULD
GO BACK AND TALK TO? I would go back and talk to a lot of people, I've found out the hard way that you don't always have all the time you want to tell some one something....even if someone don't want to hear how you feel about them you should some how tell them any way....
22. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE DAY? Friday and Sat.
23. WHAT'S IN THE TRUNK OF YOUR CAR?
24. WHICH DO YOU PREFER, SUSHI OR HAMBURGER? Hamburger
25. FROM THE PEOPLE YOU WILL EMAIL THIS TO, WHO'S MOST
LIKELY TO RESPOND FIRST? not sure
26. WHO'S LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND? I don't know!
27. WHO DID YOU RECEIVE THIS FROM? A friend

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Dec 7, 2004

Its the onlii way we kno how to rock

Hey whats up? Nothing here. Im sooo bored. Im listening to AOL@ Radio =\ . I wanna go to the movies. Its sooo windy right now. jeeze I havent wrote in this in awhile. Well lets see. . . Friday, I got my cell phone =D for an early x-mas present, Savannah came over. We got a movie. Well then we had to wake up at 8 bc i had to bowl, so we went there and yeah, and then we went to the mall with my aunt and Lisa, and also Olive Garden, Later that night, we went to 422's. Good resturant. Saw Brandon there. Hes so cute hehe. Then came home and watched the movie and ran it back at 10. and then yeah, it was kinda boring this weekend considering that i just got ungrounded. On my interms i got:
History -    D
Science -   C
Health -     N/A (D)

English - A
Work/Fam.-B

Math - B
Yeah, so i just gotta bring my health and history grades up, i hated being grounded!! Wonder whos "Haha" on my tagboard? and "Hahaha"? hrmm,. . . i have a english and work/fam project due Friday =/ well i think im out, if you need me, call/ text me .883-9574.
All i want for x-mas is you
-Megn

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Nov 30, 2004

Quiz thingy

1. WHAT IS Your FULL NAME? megan helena mazarek
2. WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING? pink pj bottems
3. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? aol radio -Ryan cabrera * true
4. WHAT'S THE LAST THING YOU ATE? taco
5. DO YOU WISH ON STARS? yeah
6. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? <- that color lol
7. HOW IS THE WEATHER RIGHT NOW? rainy cold
8. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? bre
9. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT YOU THIS? yeah
10. HOW OLD ARE YOU TODAY? 14
11. FAVORITE DRINK? root beer
12. FAVORITE SPORT? umm. . .?
13. HAIR COLOR? brown with blonde highlights
14. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? no
15. SIBLINGS? only child
16. FAVORITE MONTH? June/ december
17. FAVORITE FOOD? chicken / tacos
18. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? S.W.A.T.
19. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR? June 17/ x-mas break
20. WHAT DO YOU DO TO VENT ANGER? yell
21. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD? polly pckets
22. SUMMER OR WINTER? summer
23. HUGS OR KISSES? both..
24. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA? vanilla
25. DO YOU WANT YOUR FRIENDS TO WRITE/ E-MAIL BACK? sure?
26. WHO IS MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND? no one lol
27. WHO IS LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND? everyone
28. LIVING ARRANGEMENTS? aunt, me, g-ma(till january)
29. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? um... like a few days ago
30. WHAT IS UNDER YOUR BED? my speakers till i find room to put my stereo, and shoes 31. WHO IS THE FRIEND YOU HAVE HAD THE LONGEST? bre
32. WHAT DID YOU DO LAST NIGHT? got my hair done
33. FAVORITE SMELLS? um.. guys adidas and holiser =)
34. WHAT INSPIRES YOU? things
35. WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF? getting my leg cut off
36. PLAIN, BUTTERED OR SALTED POPCORN? kettle corn lol
37. FAVORITE CAR? silver sunfire, 2 door, with blue neons
38. FAVORITE FLOWER? pink carnations
39. NUMBER OF KEYS ON YOUR KEY RING? non right now
40. CAN YOU JUGGLE? no 41. FAVORITE DAY OF THE WEEK? friday nd saterdays
42. WHAT DID YOU DO ON YOUR LAST BIRTHDAY? had a few drinks with matt, ian, and keri
43. HOW MANY STATES HAVE YOU LIVED IN? 1 and canada
44. HOW MANY CITIES HAVE YOU LIVED IN? 2, champion and moffet
45. HOW MANY CARS HAVE YOU HAD? me none, family- 11
46. WHAT WAS THE FIRST CAR THAT YOU OWNED? i dont know i havent owned one yet
47. WHERE WERE YOU BORN? trumbull

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Nov 23, 2004

Im not okay

Im so fucking tired of this shit. People need to keep their gawd damn fucking mouths shut. they shouldnt be talking about other fucking peoples personal life, we don't. and its not just me who they talk about, its everyone, how much they fucking hate them, and theyre such two-faced. And i know who said it. If i wanted people to know, id fucking tell them, not have you fucking do it. and you know exactly who the fuck you are. dont even bother fucking talking to me anymore, ive had it, and with youre fucking lies. thats all you do to me, is lie to me. what the fuck, i thought we were spossed to be fucking friends?! and what the fucks up with blaming it on youre fucking boyfriend who you "cant stand not to be with"? everyone knows how you treat him, like shit. so leave me the fuck alone and my fucking personal life.
-Dedicated-
Well my weekend sucked and ha! everyone found out from a certian bitch. great, fucking great. i guess champion is too small to keep secrets, wtf. and the great thing is, i didnt even talk about thier fucking personal life, ha! prolly cuz they didnt have one? seems like since they dont have anything to tell about them, they have to let the whole school know what i fucking did. Im going to fucking hell right now, be back at 3, if i make it that long.
-like violence, you have me, forever and after-
*megn

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Nov 15, 2004

I cant go on not loving you. . .

Hey whats up? Nothing here. My aunts been a bitch today, My mom called and then Bre beeped in and wanted to ask my aunt if I could go to Michigan with her after Turkey dinner, and my aunts like "Who is that?" Im like Mom, shes like "youre grounded from the phone, remember" and yeah, and then i made a "smart remark" about her dropping the ice on the floor and she comes in and puts ice down my shirt. Well when my mom called, she asked if I would record some shows for her bc she was going to bed and didnt know how to work my g-mas VCR. So i did. Well my aunt comes in after fear factor and was like "Record Las Vegas for me" and im like "im recording shows for mom" shes like "well I dont care, i told you to record it for me, she can record it up there, and did you record the shows last night? What tape are you recording on?!" Im like "whatever, um. . . no, the tape thats in there" "Well i told you that theres North Shore on there and G-ma hasnt seen it yet" "its okay, ill catch up to it this week", g-ma. "How am I spossed to stop the progaming?"-Aunt "Hit stop or power"-me "its not working, you figure it out ::throws remote at me::" me-::walks up to vcr and hits 'Stop', it stops:: ::yells acrost house:: "yeah, that was really hard! wheres my 10$ from last night?" "wheres my $100 i gave you?" wtf?! she didnt have to give me year book money or ticket money, but she took my 10$ i earned from babysitting, in which im also getting my hair did. so yeah. Concert was good, babysitting was okay, we watched Garfeild and Shrek 2 and I watched The Day After Tomorrow, while he fell asleep durring it. so yeah, im gonna go and watch las vegas sence no ones on. Later
-These are the stories of our lives as fictional as they may seem.
*-*Megn*-*

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Nov 11, 2004

abuhubububhubugh ?

Hey whats up? Nothing here, im soo bored, Im listening to Ashlee Simpson `Autobiography` so yeah. I was listening to My Chemical Romance's `I'm Not Okay(I Promise)` but yeah. . . So I guess Im going to the Good Charlotte concert tomorrow =) sweeeet. Saterday Im babysitting Kyle, maybe? So yeah, I didnt go to school wensday, not that I was sick, well Monday, me nd my aunt got everything from my moms and brought it up here, well it was taking up her garage i guess, and tuesday night she asked me if i wanted to stay home im like hells yeah, so i did and we put together my room, well i got my old room back, me and my g-ma switched rooms, my aunts computer is now in the walk in room? i guess and my computer, daybed, and all that jazz is in my room, well when they were bringing down my tv, well there was my old one from before i got my room remodled at my moms and my new tv from x-mas, well dumbasses brought my old tv down, and my dvd player dont hook up to it, argh! oh well, theyre switching them sooner or later, hopefully sooner. Today we had a Veterans Assemb. and I fell asleep during it. so yeah, it was kinda boring, everyones leaving me, =.( oh well. I came to a conclusion to who I like, well im not gonna say becuz some prolly know, and i think only one person knows becuz i told them. well yeah, i hope it works out =) and yeah. Well Im gonna go and watch the ending of `life as we know it`. So later. Go Piston's =)
Megn- theres so much to me that you havent seen-

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Nov 5, 2004

Bueatiful Soul

Hey whats up? Nothing here, im sooo bored. Theres nothing to do =( We had early release today, yeah. I got my report card today =\ :

Rasile / History - C
Grabowski / Science - C
LaLiberti / Health - D

Grant / Gen. English -B

Miller / Work n Fam 1- B
Loree / Math - C
So yeah. . . Im grounded bc of dumbass health, i should have taken it in Summer School and taken French =\ damnit. . . Oh well, im only grounded from the phone and i can get on the computer from 9-10 and in the AM, so its not all that bad, its spossed to be for 4 weeks, but if i bring my things home and "prove" i do my work, then its only 3, 21 days without the phone, and it starts Monday. hrmm. . . the only one i basicly talk to any more is Sam, but i see him tomorrow. so yeah. Well i think we're going to get a movie or 2, leave me some =)
Am I crazy for wanting you?
Megn

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